fml

one minute I feel like I'm all on top of everything, and then the next my world is crashing around me.. last week was an amazing week . this Week my parents came back and I just feel like i have so much added stress on me. being away from them I feel like I've acomplished more... ugh life right now is a drag one bad thing after the other. sometimes I just feel like giving up, and just becoming an average person with a boring life 9-5 job etc. life is so confusing and my head hurts..I want to go on a vacation all alone that would be just wonderful. xoxo and I'm out

Update on life.

So i've been extra lazy lately with writing complete blogs actually filled with thought lol. But anyways things have picked up i just had a really good night and i am basically on cloud 9 smell so good right now :D. Anyways school starts soon and i start dance on monday, which is really exciting on so many levels i seriously can't wait i feel like i haven't dance in soooo long. But anyways i beginning to see what i really want in life. I am noticing who is really here for me and who isn't. So this is yr for me is going to be PERFECT. Even though a lot of things have changed which sucks in a way but maybe it's for the better. I've lost a friend kinda :/ well i haven't actually i just feel like we aren't as close anymore.. But anyways this coming weak is going to be extremely challenging i am going to work my hardest...
xoxo
irene

What i want to be

i want to be an american icon thats my goal in life.

my fate.

i am either going to end up.....

dead

in jail

or a professional dancer

-- ANA ELECRAFT

je suis désolé

i am sorry for being the worst person ever...
i am sorry for always wanting to be better.
i am sorry for trying.
i am sorry for being me.
i am sorry i make ur life a living hell.
i am sorry you are so blind to everyone else feelings.
i am sorry you put people before me.
i am sorry you are so ignorant.
i am sorry you think god is the answer for everything that goes wrong.
i am sorry for ruining everything.
i am sorry for not listening.
i am sorry for being the "dark cloud"
i am sorry for not being kind.
i am sorry for not being selfish.
i am sorry for being a jealous bitch.
i am sorry for always starting fights.
i am sorry for being me.
i am sorry for having a personality.
i am sorry for actually believing in my self.
i am sorry that you don't ever dream.
i am sorry that you don't believe in my dream.
I AM SORRY.

sheer brilliance. brought me to tears :]

So stressed out...

It seems like everyone is worrying about themselves why can't i ever do the same thing. I am beyond stressed out on family issues. Africans have one mentality they think about them selves do something stupid and worry about the consequences later and who it is going to affect. I seriously hate it they feel like they always have to be right about everything like can you ever be wrong? it makes me so mad how some ppl think they are always rite it's annoying i can't stand living here seriously. Can't wait for college hope everyone loses my number expect for my mom and those who really matter. which is only like three people. You reading this is most likely not one of those three people sorry. I am beyond stressed right now and it really getting to me this shity summer is making it even worst. Have you ever felt you have nothing to your self? seriously i feel like i have nothing at all to myself... even from a young age like what 4 0r 5 it's really annoying too.. ugh anyways this summer is pretty shitty and it keeps getting worst and my family is not doing much to make it better. FUCK SUMMER 09' it's super dumb

Life is....

BULLSHIT.

Three cheers for they worst summer ever!

I seriously hope things turn around by the end of this summer. This summer seriously sucks so bad i haven't done anything! It's so boring and i hate that i can't go anywhere because i have to ask for rides. I freaking hate it, gosh summer is so stupid this yr it's like they worst one. it just keeps on getting worst like i am not even going to lie. haven't done anything haven't hung out with anyone, haven't been anywhere this summer is entirely STUPID. like serious what happended to making summer 09' a blast. this is some crap bad shit just keeps happening and it's pissing me off. i haven't done anything at all it is so annoying. ugh i wish school would just start summer 09' is so dumb. Seriously i just keep repeating the same thing thats how mad i am. I HATE SUMMER 09' honestly.... seems like everyone is doing everything and going everywhere i just can't wait for school to start again so i don't have to be home at ALL. seriously i am going to occupy my self with so much stuff that i don't have to go home.