World.

bonjour como sava?
hello world. everything seems to be moving so fast this year i can't quiet keep up. I can't quiet keep my priorities in order. Dance,family,friends. I have been spending way to much time with the wrong people... seriously need to get everything back into check. Focus more on school and dance and less on friends but keeping the right ones. to much drama around me that i am not involved in, and i feel like i need to let it all go a long with the people involved in it. Haven't blogged in a while! phewww. Goals for this month.
*Shoot more footage for c'est la vie
*Denver Mohh.
*cirque du soliel
* and work out new schedule for next semester.

Hypocrite.

Funny how the exact person i don't want to be is the exact person i am. I a prepared for the shit i am about to get because karma is a bitch and it will come back to me and when it does i deserve it. seriously if was the other person i would feel so hurt mad and betrayed. Thank god i know that isn't me and it was a horrible mistake and i put my self into that situation, so it is my fault. All i can do now is wait for everything to fall into place. Ugh guys have no emotions i swear lol they don't think twice when they do something but for a girl they will think about it for the next 3 yrs lol! it's redic. Ahhhhh NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER doing that again seriously making my self a promise.. i a literally disgusted in my self. !

Life. Love. && Insanity

What we learn in life is not to believe in fairy tales. Why not, why can't i have fairy tale ending just like cinderella? does everything have to be so complicated and complex. I've been inspired, inspired to make people believe in love again. Inspired to write, inspired to start living my life again :]. well what got me thinking was how in every relationship it's all about the me,my, & i's. wether the relationship is a friendship,marriage,bf & gf, everyone is always worrying about the small picture. Nothings wrong with fine tuning your own little portrait but think of the world as something bigger and great than your self your like a leaf in portrait in the forest. At least thats how i feel. I just want to know what it feels like to have to worry about more than my self as in love, not like friends or family. Is it so much to freaking ask to find a decent guy! Lord. Well this is my crazy rant for the night more tomorrow.
xoxo
i'm back

please

god please help me make it !

Ahhh

I wish i could change my life. I wish i could be someone else. I wish i could be pretty. I wish i could know the feeling of being loved by someone. I wish i could know the feeling of being wanted by someone. I wish i was a good dancer. I wish i could be my self. I wish i had a family that cared. I wish i wasn't my self. I wish i was skinnier. I wish i was versatile. I wish i could be everything i am not.

I wish it would all just happen.
Gosh I really thought of my life and thought about how good i have it compared to other people. Before you stop something from doing something they love you should think to your self for one second. What if you confined to a wheel chair and couldn't walk what if you had a illness that prevented you from doing the sports and activities you love. i seriously have a whole new out look on life. Some times i may loose my focus but i always try to regain it. But there are always things people are going to complain about, yes i want this i want that, will i ever get it i don't know. It seems more and more i am slipping away from my dream. my dream is becoming more and more un realistic to me i miss the feelings i use to have when dance was my whole life . I miss the feeling of actually believing in my self. GOD!! i wish i could tell someone this face to face! i wish i had a bestfriend :[ ugh it's nice to have friends but i want someone i could say this all to ughhh! just someone to be able to unload on. The only place i think i am truly my self is classic image. I feel so comfortable around those people as i type this i sit here watching district 9 half crying thinking about all my life and all i have been through. Ugh why can't everything be perfect! why can't i just live a cinderella story find a prince charming and live happily ever after. Goshh i wish i was pretty :[.

honestly

Honestly I give up! Seriously like you do everything to try and get him. To notice but he never does!

To be loved.

is one of the greatest feelings on earth. Is it true that everyone has someone perfect out there waiting for them. Certainly doesn't feel that way. For once it's like i want to be chosen out of a crowd i want a boy to come up to me and say something that will make me smile. Sick of being in the friend zone with everyguy i meet :[ . Like seriously i wish i could feel beautiful for once i wish i could feel like someone loves me. I wish had the feeling of knowing someone was thinking about me before they go to sleep every night.... Glad no one reads my blog :]] ... ughh seriously hating this soo much sick of being single?

--irene

Honestly

Honestly i feel like giving up. No matter how hard i try.. ugh i need some inspiration .. ugh :/ i just wish i was ....

2010

funny when you look back at the people you like... you straight up say WTF!!.. haha. 2010: new year new things. super excited so far my 2010 has started off with a bang. pretty amazing time in vegas had awesome shows, saw awesome shows. Can't wait to head out to new jersey for MOHH :]] super excited . well my new years resolution is to me more kind to my parents and try to understand them more. Thats going to be a hard challenge. Goals: Work harder. get straight a's again =] .. become 100x better in dance than i already am i. write an amazing piece of literature. battle more. choreograph at least 4 good dances for the spring show. perfect my tumbling. and be more appreciative and kind towards other people [ Biggest challenge] also to drop the friends that constantly grippe me and make me feel bad.... one........two...........three............ blast off. xoxo. iroc