Saturday, February 20, 2010
Ahhh
I wish i could change my life. I wish i could be someone else. I wish i could be pretty. I wish i could know the feeling of being loved by someone. I wish i could know the feeling of being wanted by someone. I wish i was a good dancer. I wish i could be my self. I wish i had a family that cared. I wish i wasn't my self. I wish i was skinnier. I wish i was versatile. I wish i could be everything i am not.
I wish it would all just happen.
Gosh I really thought of my life and thought about how good i have it compared to other people. Before you stop something from doing something they love you should think to your self for one second. What if you confined to a wheel chair and couldn't walk what if you had a illness that prevented you from doing the sports and activities you love. i seriously have a whole new out look on life. Some times i may loose my focus but i always try to regain it. But there are always things people are going to complain about, yes i want this i want that, will i ever get it i don't know. It seems more and more i am slipping away from my dream. my dream is becoming more and more un realistic to me i miss the feelings i use to have when dance was my whole life . I miss the feeling of actually believing in my self. GOD!! i wish i could tell someone this face to face! i wish i had a bestfriend :[ ugh it's nice to have friends but i want someone i could say this all to ughhh! just someone to be able to unload on. The only place i think i am truly my self is classic image. I feel so comfortable around those people as i type this i sit here watching district 9 half crying thinking about all my life and all i have been through. Ugh why can't everything be perfect! why can't i just live a cinderella story find a prince charming and live happily ever after. Goshh i wish i was pretty :[.
I wish it would all just happen.
Gosh I really thought of my life and thought about how good i have it compared to other people. Before you stop something from doing something they love you should think to your self for one second. What if you confined to a wheel chair and couldn't walk what if you had a illness that prevented you from doing the sports and activities you love. i seriously have a whole new out look on life. Some times i may loose my focus but i always try to regain it. But there are always things people are going to complain about, yes i want this i want that, will i ever get it i don't know. It seems more and more i am slipping away from my dream. my dream is becoming more and more un realistic to me i miss the feelings i use to have when dance was my whole life . I miss the feeling of actually believing in my self. GOD!! i wish i could tell someone this face to face! i wish i had a bestfriend :[ ugh it's nice to have friends but i want someone i could say this all to ughhh! just someone to be able to unload on. The only place i think i am truly my self is classic image. I feel so comfortable around those people as i type this i sit here watching district 9 half crying thinking about all my life and all i have been through. Ugh why can't everything be perfect! why can't i just live a cinderella story find a prince charming and live happily ever after. Goshh i wish i was pretty :[.
Monday, February 1, 2010
honestly
Honestly I give up! Seriously like you do everything to try and get him. To notice but he never does!
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